I am so utterly dissatisfied with people's attitudes. I resent how people act towards education or adventure; no one explores any more. This is partly the reason I am so rude to so many people. I am a nice person I think deep down; I have lovely thoughts and am quite spiritual at heart which may shock many who know me. Truth is there is no one who knows me wholeheartedly except my family and even they see someone far different from what I am. I love to wander on my own and soak in my own company and own thoughts because not one person on this planet will ever see the world through my eyes. I am not frightened of someone disagreeing with me and there is no fear or being wrong, but I think it is that I am uncertain of letting anybody into my little world because they might corrupt it or destroy some of the beautiful things. I am exceedingly old fashioned; although I enjoy the luxuries of modern day Britain I think these have replaced any emotional or moral luxuries we may have had beforehand. I want to be swept off my feet and to dance like a flapper girl with someone to the music my grandparents swooned over. That is my ultimate fantasy. I have always believed in a soul and the fact that when someone dies it is not the end of them: I think this is more of a comfort than anything but everybody carries their loved ones with them after death anyway so I don't think it is an unhealthy belief.

I hate the fact that boys poke you in the face. I am aware that this doesn't apply to most boys but I have discovered one who is a face poker and just wish instead of divulging so much energy into this action would actually go to college and educate himself so that maybe, one day, hopefully, we could engage in an intelligent conversation. This makes me so utterly sad that it is "uncool" to attend school; this is why my heart is set on Cambridge University. The people there will want to learn and want to explore the world and I think this is all I will ask for in life: to learn as I adventure through life albeit most likely in my most common own company.